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Car math. [06 Oct 2003|04:23pm] [ mood | optimistic ] [ music | john mayer, a.k.a. jesus ] Why are cars so damn expensive?! *whines* I found my dream car. 1996 Ford Mustang GT convertible, green, with leather interior and rear spoiler. Ohhhh yeah. 3.8 liter V-8 with fuel injection, automatic transmission. $6977. OK. If I don't spend ANY money for the next two years, I get a job, and I get my parents to agree to pay for half...I could afford it by the beginning of senior year. I WIN. 3 comments|post comment

stolen from random LJ people. [27 Sep 2003|10:37pm] [ mood | tired ] [ music | I don't think my username has ever been truer ] ( favorite songs starting with the letters of my username. ) 2 comments|post comment

you've probably noticed i haven't been around here lately [25 Sep 2003|05:43pm] [ mood | alone ] [ music | a song or what. ] the glove compartment isn't accurately named and everybody knows it. so i'm proposing a swift orderly change. cause behind its door there's nothing to keep my fingers warm and all i find are souvenirs from better times before the gleam of your taillights fading east to find yourself a better life. i was searching for some legal document as the rain beat down on the hood when i stumbled upon pictures i tried to forget and that's how this idea was drilled into my head cause it's too important to stay the way it's been there's no blame for how our love did slowly fade and now that it's gone it's like it wasn't there at all and here i rest where disappointment and regret collide lying awake at night there's no blame for how our love did slowly fade and now that it's gone it's like it wasn't there at all and here i rest where disappointment and regret collide lying awake at night when i'm lying awake at night. post comment

[17 Sep 2003|07:41pm] GreatestJournal lets you have 1,000 icons. OMFG. 6 comments|post comment

[13 Sep 2003|01:02pm] [ mood | aggravated ] [ music | one foot in front of the other_bright eyes ] Ryan's coming over in about an hour and then we're going to the football game. I kinda forgot how to take stats. I'm really hoping it'll come back to me when I look at the paper. As for Ryan, he got a haircut. This always pisses me off. He practically buzzed the entire thing off, which makes me want to cry because I am such a hair person. Besides, he looks much better with the shaggy hair. I hate it when people don't realize how much hotter they are one way than another and then they keep making their potentially hot selves ugly. Gah. That sentence made no sense. :/ Anyway, hair issues aside, things are going tres bien with mon petit ami, which is strange French for "boyfriend". "Little friend". Ryan is about 6 inches taller than me. French people can be retarded. My dad has been being a jackassed monkey pimp as of late. He took all my little hopes and dreams in his hand and SQUEEZED the life out of them when he said, "I like this Camry. I may not get another car." Uh...un moment, mon cher. What about *MY* driving? Dad: "Oh, you might be able to use it every once in a while..." Oh no, mon pere, I *will* be driving a car as soon as I get my lisence. I have been WAITING and WAITING for this. I will do whatever it takes. I'm going to become the manual transmission master so I can drive the stick shift in the 4runner. Then, I WILL BE QUEEN. Aherm. I want a Mustang. Poo on money. Poo on a $24,000 MSRP. I think if you are a cool person, comme moi, you should be given a car as a reward for being so cool. I gotta stop writing in this thing, I'm just ranting now. I should do my homework, but...no. 2 comments|post comment

sometimes, america is so stupid. [12 Sep 2003|04:31pm] [ mood | liberal ] "I pledge a grievance to the flag of the United States of America and to the Republicans whom I can't stand One nation, under smog, indispicable, with liberty for just us not all." -NOFX 2 comments|post comment

Give me space so I can breathe, give me just one inch I swear that's all I need [10 Sep 2003|03:49pm] [ mood | sick ] [ music | space_something corporate ] I simply do not have the energy to do homework. My day left me completely exhausted, mentally and physically, although it was better than yesterday. I guess Ryan really did listen to me on the phone last night, and he did what I asked, which meant so much to me. I can barely stand it, though, because I feel like every day he needs me less and less while every day I need him more and more. I'm always worried that he doesn't want to see me or is annoyed by me or thinks I'm stupid or doesn't love me or care about me. When I think about it, he's never given me much of a reason to think any of that, but I'm paranoid. I spend so much time worrying about it, it's almost not worth it. Almost. God, I love him. If my year keeps going like this, I simply don't think I can take it. 1 comment|post comment

ferst daiye of skool [09 Sep 2003|07:11pm] [ mood | cranky ] [ music | Brother complaining about Spanish honors. I laugh at him. ] Having all honors classes is not so bad. I think I will be able to handle this. I have Vaughn. YAY! Love Vaughn. Love that class. OMG LOVE LIT!!!111one!!!!! I'm so excited for it. PE is going to SUCK extra-hard because Moron Moran is adding a two-mile run once a week. It's sick that I'm almost secretly glad in a way that I could never explain. I guess it will be cool to stretch my limits a little. ("A little", who am I kidding? Stretch them to the Xtreme.) And a lot of other people will suck just as much as/more than I do. Which is encouraging. Crash O'Byrne wants me to go out for the soccer team with her. I think I will. For one thing, I really like her, and also I really do want to be active. If it gets me in better shape, I might do track. And who knows? XC even. But I shouldn't get ahead of myself. I don't think Ryan even touched me today. Except to punch me, twice. I know this is worse because I'm expecting something so horrible, but I really hope we can still be close at school. I hope he can find time for me in between XC and homework and class and all his other stuff. But at least he has given me inspiration to write my first piece for creative writing club, although I don't think I would ever let him read it because it's very personal and a little odd and probably a bit insulting although I don't mean it to be and I really love aboslutely everything about him. I adore Rosemarie and I'm worried that she's really unhappy with her schedule and everything. I'm so upset that I couldn't find her at lunch today and that we got seperated after school. I don't know what to say because I know she's reading this, so I guess she knows that I wrote it because I wanted her to know I was sorry I didn't see her as much as I would have liked today. "Perks of Being a Wallflower" is good. REALLY good. 3 comments|post comment

tired of red letter nite [08 Sep 2003|09:22am] New AIM screenname: earlier november Add m3h. 1 comment|post comment

& I die trying just to keep myself from kissing you [07 Sep 2003|10:57am] [ mood | fat, lazy, out of shape ] [ music | the tension and the terror_straylight run ] Ryan wants me to go to his first cross-country meet on Thursday. I want to support him and all, but I'm so emotionally fragile when it comes to cross-country that I might slit my wrists upon seeing all these people effortlessly doing something I couldn't do if my life depended on it. In the end, though, my devotion to him wins, so I'll probably be there. I just might have my eyes closed and my hands over my ears. ( but i am not worthless. ) 15 comments|post comment

Dude, there's a chick in this version of "Bike Scene". I don't remember a chick... [06 Sep 2003|04:54pm] [ mood | anxious ] [ music | bike scene_taking back sunday ] I'm a little bit excited for school to start, I must admit. It will be nice to see people like Ray, Flynn, and Simone; people I like and haven't seen all summer. On the other hand, I completely feel like I'm going to flop over and DIE from stress. I know I brought it on myself but WHAT THE Fj8712unfy76dsCK was I thinking when I signed up for ALL HONORS and PRECALCULUS? Jesus H., I'm an IDIOT. Another year of school, another year of Catholic confirmation class. Goody goody gumdrops. 5 comments|post comment

[06 Sep 2003|11:58am] [ mood | energetic ] [ music | art is hard_cursive ] New colors on my layout, new icons. w00tXcore. Uh...why did LiveJournal go and rape itself? It completely f'd its layout up. It's oogly. OoglyXcore. I gotta stop saying -Xcore so much. It's going to become a really, really bad habit. 6 comments|post comment

Zzzzz [04 Sep 2003|12:37pm] [ mood | blank ] [ music | raise a family_lagwagon ] I'm home. Hoorah. I missed Ryan. I missed all my friends. I'm nervous as hell about school starting. I'm so sick of my family. I listened to too much Alkaline Trio. I got a weird uneven sunburn on my shoulder that turned into a tan, so now it looks like I have an eff'd up birthmark. I took 3 rolls of film that I am convinced all suck. With the exception on one picture of a little boy in the sand that I really like. My hair is curly and I am too lazy to do anything about it. Besides, I think it looks kind of good. I lost my favorite earring down the sink drain. I watched a spider bite me and it wasn't so bad. My eyeliner pencil is dull. Something I wanted to buy Ryan ended up costing $65 so I couldn't afford it. My brother is Satan. If you suck on your finger after a day at the beach it tastes salty. Palm trees look cool. An orgasm is really nothing more than a rush of endorphins. And that is my week in a nutshell. Sort of. 4 comments|post comment

[26 Aug 2003|10:29pm] [ mood | anxious ] [ music | turtleneck coverup_ozma ] Goodbye, computer. Goodbye, friends. Goodbye, Ryan. I am off to Hawaii. oO See you all in a week! post comment

[23 Aug 2003|09:11pm] [ mood | loved ] [ music | & in love ] Awwwwwwwwwweeee. I have the world's best boyfriend. <33333333333 post comment

[22 Aug 2003|11:00am] [ mood | hungover ] Fall Out Boy concert rocked! Oh my god...so many tight jeans! We went to the Troubadour in West Hollywood, a.k.a. Gaytown USA, so we counted the rainbows. We got to 22 or something like that. We should've been counting the porno theatres, though; I saw 5 or 6 of those. Also, Rosemarie chugged my drink, which was very impressive. Good times. The Troubadour is sooooo small. It's a bar. Honestly, it's the size of my living room! That wasn't really a problem since there wasn't a whole lot of moshing so I didn't get completely crushed. In fact, I managed to push and shove my way to the very front, leaning on the stage with an amp RIGHT in front of me blasting my ears out, which was incredibly kickass, and I got a high-five from Fall Out Boy's guitarist and I told him I liked his UNBELIEVABLY tight pants. I have to say, though, even though I went to see Fall Out Boy I think Acceptence put on the best show. The singer, in an outfit several sizes too small, writhed around the floor, gave the microphone to a bunch of fans, and sang into one girl's cell phone. Trouble Is was OK, Rosema didn't like them but I thought they played pretty well. Spitalfield was really good, I'm thinking about buying their CD. Acceptence I already said was awesome, and of course I completely rocked out to Fall Out Boy. Next concert will probably be Something Corporate with The Format in November, I think. Goddammit though, I'm pissed off that the Taking Back Sunday/Piebald show on September 8 sold out. >.0 2 comments|post comment

I love the last line... [21 Aug 2003|11:27am] [ mood | amused ] [ music | i loved the way she said L.A._spitalfield ] Hahahahahahaha. ( my reaction to this story ) 9 comments|post comment

Skipping CD pisses me off [20 Aug 2003|08:25pm] [ mood | bitchy ] [ music | Ben Kweller, skipping... ] I DON'T WANT TO GO TO HAWAII. Why? Because: I look fat in bathing suits I hate my hair when it gets wet I don't want to sit on a plane for 6 hours I don't want to spend time with just my parents and brother I won't get to see anybody for basically the rest of the summer I won't have a computer Ugh, and the Ben Kweller CD I just burned skips like m4d. I don't know why. Maybe it's my CD player, as I only have an old CD player as opposed to the $120 MP3/CD combo my mother just bought for my brother. >. 6 comments|post comment

I read about the afterlife but I never really lived more than an hour [19 Aug 2003|12:11pm] [ music | saturday_fall out boy ] NOOOOOOOOO! My worst nightmare has come true! Apparently, I screwed up the sound card on my computer so now I'm using the integrated sound, which BLOWS hard. It sounds like somebody's using a leafblower in the background of all my songs. T_T And it crackles with static with every strum of the bass because my subwoofer bitched me out, too. Hate you, sound card. Hate you, computer. DIEDIEDIE. In other news, I have a livejournal. http://www.livejournal.com/users/wasted_ready w00t. 9 comments|post comment

[17 Aug 2003|01:52pm] [ mood | depressed ] I can't decide if I'm excited or pissed off about school starting. I'm looking forward to: Having something to do all day Seeing my friends on a (more or less) daily basis Showing off my band clothes, w00t I'm dreading: P.E. Homework, loads and loads of homework Having to see Jasmine...not that I don't like her, just that it will be awkward Shit, I've been so depressed lately. I need to do something. I wonder if I can still join an AYSO soccer team. I know I would suck ass, but that's not really the point...it's too late though; I think sign-ups were like in spring. red letter nite: i hate that they all run cross country and i don't, i hate that i can't, i hate that i'm so out of shape but too lazy to fix it red letter nite: i feel like i've been denied membership to an elite club Some Guy or Dude: but you have things that you love and that make you happy too, like music Some Guy or Dude: just because what he loves to do is physical excersize doesn't mean he's any better than you or that his passion carries any more weight than yours Some Guy or Dude: all he does is run in circles all day 6 comments|post comment

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